My life is good. I’m happily married, and I live in a great house. I have access to all amenities you could think of. I have four pets who love me. Even my blog is somewhat successful, and people enjoy reading my fiction. And yet…I long for more. There’s this …
Not For Me, or Is It? Before my first NaNoWriMo, I had heard about it. I never really looked into how it worked. I thought it was a weird competition I didn’t want to enter. In 2018 some planned writing assignments fell away when I again came across this phenomenon. …
When I saw this prompt, I knew I wanted to join. Between 1995 and 2005, roughly, all I listened to was R&B.But then I reached the next problem: which songs to write about. Songs that made me sad, musical pieces that turned me on, fun stuff? There were too many …
‘You are exactly where you are supposed to be.’This is a line from one of the meditations I listen to via the Insight Timer app. Hearing this calms me down every time.My situation is all right, I am okay, there is no need to change. My ever-worrying mind calms down …
Having eye-contact is scary. In a way, eyes give me too much information. I feel like I can see through people, read their intentions and tell if they’re lying. But this is not 100% true. Often enough, I’ve been duped and betrayed.I’m sometimes clumsy in looking at people, doing it …
When considering this meme, I couldn’t really find any closed doors. Sure, I’ve been let go a couple of times, usually because the company I worked for stopped or went bankrupt. Those times were hectic and upsetting, but in the end, I came out better.There is something related to this …
Content Warning: There are mentions of bullying, abuse and sexual abuse in this text Spiritual Block I’ve mentioned it before: I’m a spiritual person. Loads of my decisions are based on emotions, on what I sense to be the right choice. What I’ve read about forgiveness is that it’s obligatory …
I’m Busy I’m not a people-person. It’s gotten worse over the years, especially now that it combines with social anxiety. As a child, I wasn’t the most sociable person, either. I remember while reading, a friend would come by, asking if I wanted to play outside, and I asked my …
Never the Twain Shall Meet I’m a private person. Unfortunately, life has taught me that it is dangerous to be open and welcoming to the world. Time and time again, I’ve been betrayed by those closest to me. This has led me, and my husband, to be very private. Our …
Friends were my theme of 2019. I joined the BDSM community, and I discovered why I hadn’t been able to make friends for over twenty years: kink. I had several best friends during my high school years, but we connected over different things than sexuality. We had a similar lifestyle, …
