I don’t make resolutions. I’m convinced if there’s something that you want to change in your life, you should do so at that moment. Don’t wait until the first of January to better your ways.
However, there was one time I did make resolutions. I remember being at my friend’s house for New Year’s Eve when we were discussing our plans for the next year. Ten years ago, I made those resolutions, and I live with their consequences to this day.
Promotion at Work
The first of the two resolutions, was that I did want to take the promotion that had been offered to me, and I wanted to make it work. I had turned it down at first. I was still in university, and I needed the job in retail to make a living. In my mind, at the time, I simply wanted to do my tasks without any added responsibilities. I should have known it doesn’t work from like that. People come to me with their questions. My curious nature drew me to tasks with more responsibility almost naturally. My resolution was to embrace the promotion and to fulfil it to my best ability.
Lessons in Management
I did. I learned many things on the way while spending seven years in this position. One thing I learned was that people in charge don’t always know what to do, but the fact that you make a decision will earn you respect. People came to me with their problems, and I loved solving them.
The other thing I learned was politics. I’ve never been interested in politics, not in the nation, not in the groups that I joined. I will respect you for the abilities you show, not because you’ve been there for twenty years or because you’re older than me.
I encountered managers who disliked the fact that I was different. That I was smarter than them. My submissive nature made we want to obey, follow the rules and adapt to whatever circumstances. These qualities were abused many times during my years in retail.
I learned how to manage employees during my years in this position, I learned how to make decisions, but unfortunately, I didn’t learn how to set limits for myself.
My second resolution was that I wanted to make things work with that guy I had been chatting with for two months. We had met on a BDSM profile site, and we connected from the first messages we exchanged. We had even given each other our real phone numbers. Usually, I gave out a burner phone so that my identity was shielded. Somehow this guy let safe enough to give out my real number.
We met each other for the first time on Valentine’s Day. Now, ten years down the line, we’re happily married and in a 24/7 D/s. So yeah, from the one time that I did make resolutions they turned out well.
Do I have resolutions for 2020?
I guess, like in 2009, to continue on the path that I’m currently on.
I’ll continue with my blog. I just took a short break for the holidays, and I missed it immensely.
I’ll continue writing. My blog, my fiction and maybe even poetry if I manage.
I hope to make some more money than I’ve done so far, but we’ll see how that goes.
I also have the standard resolutions of exercising more and eating healthier. I need to get back to my daily walks and doing more yoga exercises.
I want to continue with my exploration of the real-life BDSM community by going to munches and peer ropes. Maybe this year we’ll expand it to workshops and/or play parties. We’ll see how far we’ll get.
Future is Uncertain
I don’t make solid plans. You never know what happens. Good health is never a guarantee. My husband’s job is secure, but even that is never for one hundred per cent. So we’ll see where this year takes us. I’m cautiously positive that things will turn out all right.