Photo by Charles Deluvio on Unsplash
Photo by Charles Deluvio on Unsplash

How I watch porn is what I often call my ‘porn-therapy.’ I’m not addicted; let’s make that clear from the beginning. I can go weeks, or even months, without watching any. But then, when I do come across it again, it feels good. In a way, it feels like coming home. Watching porn awakens a side of me that sometimes gets lost. And I use it for practical purposes in my life too. But let’s begin with escapism.

Letting Go

I’m a sensible person with many rules, most of them self-imposed. I have trouble having fun, and I often forget to. I’ll mindlessly scroll through Twitter or watch TV, but more often than not, that doesn’t count as having fun.
When I open a site like BDSMLR or Xhamster, and I’m at least slightly in the mood, it’s like a door opens up, and I relax. I can let go and lose myself in the pictures and videos shown. If possible, I can do this for hours on end. And yes, like most watchers, looking for more extreme videos with every click. But that’s all right. I’m able to lose myself in these videos. I love imagining the pain these women endure since I watch mostly BDSM videos, often amateur. While watching, I can let go of myself and everything that’s holding me back on a day to day basis. And that’s what I need.

Writing Inspiration

Now, as you might have guessed, this is often combined with masturbation. But I also use watching porn to get myself in the mood for writing erotica. I don’t always do this, but the work that comes out will often be extremely dry and will lack true sexiness. If I’m planning to write afterwards, I make sure I don’t go as far as when I’m masturbating. I’ll only want a slight tingle, a small reminder of what it can be like. I often pick one photo of the genre that I’m writing in, open that in a separate tab, or download the picture. When I am lost for words while writing the story, I’ll open the image and often, it will set me back on track for the overall narrative. And yes, I’ll often come across the picture during my other online activities, which keeps the tiny sexy feeling alive throughout the day.

Real Life Play Inspiration

Another use I have for porn is that it often gives me ideas for play with my dominant. I have this paddle with holes because I saw it being used in videos on spankingtube.com. I sometimes forget that these videos’ spankees are often professional fetish actresses, and I’m not. And this paddle hurts a lot. But that’s only one example. And we’ve used this paddle in almost every spanking I’ve had since we bought it.
I also like to copy the settings I’ve watched in the videos I’ve seen. Things like breast bondage or predicament bondage are often inspired by these websites.

Porn Therapy

I jokingly call my porn consumption my ‘porn therapy.’ Watching these videos brings me instant joy and relaxation, like not much else. They open up my sexier side, and I often literally think: “Oh right, that’s how it felt,’ after not watching for a long time.
I have practical uses for watching porn, and I would say it’s an important part of my life. Without it, I often become too strict and cold and forget what it’s like to be sexy. And yes, I would definitely recommend watching porn to have a better and sexier life.

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